Blood and Roses

So you all know I live in northern Saskatchewan in the forest. This morning on the way to drive the kids to school I saw something moving out of the corner of my eye. I froze when I realized it was Sasquatch. He was holding candy and flowers and was very disappointed when I explained that although my appearance was deceiving I was not a female Bigfoot . I think I may have seen a tear in his eye as he slowly turned and melted back into the trees. 

This experience in mind, I decided some personal time was in order. I collected the trappings of "beauty" and headed to the bathroom. 

I posted a ton of stuff on social media as I waited for the tub to fill then climbed into the tub. Just as I started shaving my....knees..... my phone starts to have a seizure of epic proportions, falls on the floor and scares me half to death. I jump a good three feet and cut a chunk out of my ...knees... A chunk I was quite attached to... So I'm sorry guy I won't be taking you to the bath with me anymore especially when I shave my ...knees.. In fact I'll probably switch to airplane mode :s

My Friend Misery....

How we deal with stress is a huge part of who we are. The nicest person in the world can become a total monster under enough stress. I find that as I get older it takes less and less to turn me from Dr. Jekyll to Mr. Hyde.

I'm not ready to talk about the reason I am stressed but suffice it to say I feel like a grenade in a garbage can. That got me thinking about stress and how I handle it.

When I was young I got drunk, danced and partied and usually got into a fight. When I quit drinking I failed to find a good way to disperse the adrenaline and pressure from stress and thus I have had ongoing issues with anxiety and anger.

I hate the feeling of being out of control, either angry or happy, I hate when I cant channel my feelings or at least see the good in something. I'm trying to cope with a huge horrible life event dear reader and I am struggling not to turn it inwards and destroy myself.

I am not sure yet how I will manage it but I will let you know as things unfold. Right now I have been taking steps ( in case anyone was worried) So comment, I need suggestions, how do you deal with stress?